This thread is depressing me. Reading this makes me think a piece of our soul has been removed and consumed by an indifferent religious publishing company........oh wait....... I feel numb during holiday season too, sometimes even hostile. On one hand it's difficult to remain grumpy while people are enjoying "their" holidays, but being that "their" holidays aren't something I participate in, I feel numb. I've found that I'm happy for them to be happy, yet at the same time glad that I don't have to participate in all the foolishness, although I wonder what it would have been like to have been able to make that choice for myself as opposed to being born into a family situation where it was already decided.
reneeisorym, your baby girl is what makes it worth the struggle. To me, your baby represents what the Watchtower hates the most about those who leave their cult, and its that life goes on without them.